Post Apocalyptic Love Songs

I just had to talk to you no matter what

I don’t want love to feel wrong

There's something inside me that needs your touch

a touch only a smile could answer

I drove to the end of time

Just to see how I would die

then I thought of you

And found nothing there

Heros die first

Its the only way

we would ever listen.

I don’t want love to feel wrong

There's something inside me

that feels like

there's nothing there

Seven years

I am not the man that I used to be.
Recognize the man in the mirror I see
Left behind the flakes of cells
under my bed
except the memories in the cell of my
mind seven years is not the same me
seven years and not the same you.
one chance is all we got.
say something damn it and make it good!

Another chapter dawned

Another chapter dawned yet still we stand side by side.
Recondite feelings have drought the energy of a tired eye.
I keep mines open, as the other sleeps as you did for me,
I understand your soul, recoup well, kind friend.
The life of an artist as attractive as it may seem,
who would know the heavy burden of pain,
it took to carry while walking on the field?
I've used the word love too many times; I must confess,
but I used them as true as I could possibly know.
I walk alone, and will die alone, but I will never live alone.
All I know what we did to make this life beautiful,
is that it mattered when I met you.
Wherever you are, I pray to what I believe
may you find someplace good.
I hope inside you feel free.
I wish to meet you again
and experience this journey
I love you with all my heart dear friend
until the very end

self

I stared in the mirror yesterday until I have come to the realization there is nothing wrong with me. I looked into my eyes and the universe stared into itself. I smiled and moved my eyebrows, and checked my dimples. I stood up straighter with my head high. I said in the mirror... its possible.

time

I am grateful that I have the time to evaluate myself.
I am healing and the ball is rolling collecting days of sobriety.
All small victories.
I am hurting right now, but pain is just a reminder I am in the right path.
Like fire testing the quality of gold. Temperament adversity tests a strong willed person.

I am grateful to go through this pain and suffering, because if I conquer this I will be stronger spiritually.
And that is something great to look forward to.
I keep telling myself it will be better and more meaningful on the other side. Time will test truth.

the meaning of "I don't care"

I drove to the end of time,
And found nothing there,
during the middle of
a circling conversation,
I ended it with "I don't care."

they say words are vibrations,
I feel your energy in the air,
merely spells, they only work
if you believe or are aware

the language in the tounge,
the eloquence of truth,
the time it took
the meaning from heart.
the silent listener.
the mind let absorbing
the things left unseen

the meaning told differently

do misunderstandings happen for a reason?
is this thought thicker than blood?
I need more time to answer
I need more time to think

does love only have one perfect shot?
Can a man not be a creep for once.
Can I know what's going on your mind?
without even telling you.

does the word sorry mean it is my fault?
do I have the wrong bullets for this gun...
argues through talking at another
ego blinds the perception

the bubble bursts, the ripple in water moves
the painting dries and is abandoned.

twenty nine teen

the most productive year in a long time. it is officially snowballing