Once Upon A Time

Two years ago became
3, and three became
4, I came out of a pussy
a long time ago.
and the world fucks itself
everyday,
life is upside down.
I became everything
I never wanted to be.
2 years was a long time
ago. 5 years ago was 2012
and I thought everyone was
supposed to "see the world end."
that was the last time
I ever believed a Mayan.
I remember some good times
that will last a lifetime.
But no one cares,
so I leave them in a cage
only to starve for attention.
I look back sometimes
but they keep distancing away
like the moon from the Earth.
only can I reach so far
down the rabbit hole.

what heaven is

If only I had someone to talk to
Without pushing away
and the constant negative thoughts
someone who just looks at you
and says "fuck everyone"
then gives a simple hug

thoughts

every time i see a handprint on dust
i think of all the memories I lost
wondering why i only remember
loosing them
when i can’t remember what they were