Things I don't have right now

Give me a pen so they will listen.
Give me a time so we can create.
Give me a smile so I can feel young.
Give me a job so I can eat.
Give me a chance so I can do.
Give me a glance so I can exist.
Give me a mistake so I can feel.
Give me a cigarette so I can die.

I lost my friend along the way

Times like these, I shouldn't dwell,
on something that was meant to be
a living hell, a tall tale, claustrophobic
in my room, in my mind.
I am frozen on the other side with
my loved ones screaming, I cant talk back.
I am getting older I cant turn back
I know what to do but I'm just sitting here
with wrinkled clothes all over the floor
somebody slap me in the face before there
is no more, no more... anymore time in this race?
He let himself have it
It was not meant for me, and I put myself down
like everybody else in history
I am my own worst enemy. blah blah blah ha ha ha
I lost a friend, my bestfriend someone I truly loved
and I am tired of losing it by giving up
cant see me this way but you can read it
I am sad I am sad and I dont care