Attempt to stop drinking soda

whenever i want to cool off or something cold, I go for a diet coke. my favorite place to get sodas is happy liquor in long beach. sometimes i get cbd sodas, diet coke and my favorite right now is cannonborough craft. ive deveoped a belly and its something i want to get rid of. i remember quitting soda before. i hiked by myself to the hollywood sign and got lost... i saw houses with pools and i tried to climb a fence to jump into the pool. i saw a couple have a picnic and felt i was disturbing them as i was dying alone with all these people around me. as i treaded my wmay down the mountain, i came along a park and a playground with a water fountain. i walked to it and pressed the button and as the water jumped i felt the coldest revival of life touch my soul. and that point on I swore off soda. I also had hate and resentment towards a certain person who i do not wish to name, but i kept reminding myself that i never wish to become like them. Todays goal, I have no drive fueled by comparing myself to another person, I just want to like myself again. I want to feel good and i need to work on myself really well. I need to put in the work and this time appreciate my journey. I felt like that was something I lacked along my journey last time. time to rebrand myself once again and live a new life.