opposite actuality

Do you ever come to feel that some things in life are not what they seem to portray to be? Like for example: Propaganda. I've been really thinking a lot about what truth means. To the point where it doesn't make any sense and confuses me. And then I would try to have some deep conversation with friends who I feel don't even know what they want/to share or reveal about themselves. which confuses me, then I feel like i'm being glared at like as if it is my fault that I don't know what they're talking about. I guess what really matters is getting a point across to someone. That is the main key. I don't think being or "acting" super intelligent is supposed to get you anywhere. Being intelligent only works when you know how to use intelligence to become dilligent and productive. I have so much more to say but my mind is constantly changing... my thoughts are too explicit for the internet. everchanging. maybe you should meet me over some lunch and entertain each other over how things aren't what they seem. this subject actually reminds me of this poem.