they say the most loneliest place is being around the wrong people...

have you ever sat on a table surrounded by people who you knew nothing to talk about and saw the ones you wanted to talk to from a distance? well this time im going to use my legs and walk over to the area i want to sit with

you know my whole life i wasted it on being sad. i remember being sad for 3 years straight. i remember my teens, being sad. I remember being sad because someone didn’t like me. and im tired of that shit. i mean, why do i even exist just to automatically be negative all the time? there’s something else that is better out there that i am not focusing on. you know, ever since I practically told myself that whoever brought me into this world, this life that I live right now. that I should show them in return, that I could make this life worth living.

God and Beast

Everyday I yearn for someone to share my life with maybe I just don't see who I'm sharing with

I told a group of people that a part of me died that moment,

When I knew you wanted nothing to do with me anymore.

What was it inside my mind that made me think

You were meant for me?

A part of me always dies

Like skin cells another one regrows to adapt to this world.

Love thyself before anything else.

Even my bestfriend will leave me.

Does the human memory even matter?

We are so evolved and so smart, we created ego.

But it does not matter, in fact it is a double edge sword of omega and alpha.

All the things I have wont matter.

All of me in a pile

The best version of myself.

Thank you for never giving up on me

It was never your obligation
You knew you just had to be there
our bond was a genuine reciprocation
God watching from above listening
but does only stay silent
Like a teacher, during a test.
A feeling that has wronged me.
To learn resilience from the face of advesity.
To find God in my prayer,
and I found myself, in the right state of mind.
and to forgive the sorrows of my past.
what gave me passion to be a better person.
all the things I lost
were never mine.
material things
were only to impress
others who never cared about me in the first place
now I see
the right ones
who cheered me on
since the beginning
now I am
focusing
on the good
now I am aware
what I feed
you helped me see
what I could not
and that is
proof miracles exist.

You made me feel

Honestly I cannot denie the fact that out of the millions of faces I see everyday
it was you who actually made me feel something
it was not just attraction
it was not just emotion
it was not just feelings
love is not just the word.
It was not just touch
It was just not perfection
It was not just smell
I did not have to hear it
I just knew
you understood me.
and that made me feel safe for everyone else.

Post Apocalyptic Love Songs

I just had to talk to you no matter what

I don’t want love to feel wrong

There's something inside me that needs your touch

a touch only a smile could answer

I drove to the end of time

Just to see how I would die

then I thought of you

And found nothing there

Heros die first

Its the only way

we would ever listen.

I don’t want love to feel wrong

There's something inside me

that feels like

there's nothing there