History still repeats itself

Its a good thing for people to learn for themselves

and experience life in their own insanity

know it all's and quasi cosmopolitan teens, the masses of society

all the answers lay there on towering antique dusty shelves.

don't you know what you look like when you're wasted?

the addiction completes you, your love for life you first tasted.

we can't hide forever real life is something everyone must deal with

I do not need to steal ideas I have my own

Let's get the facts straight. How can i "steal" someones "idea" when I never understood their "idea" nor did I even like or could even relate to what your cause is about. Don't flatter yourself and don't you ever disrespect me. I don't have to help you, if whatever I coincidentally did to help people doesn't mean I stole their idea. Helping others is not even an idea in the first place. For someone I once considered a friend to even say I have "manipulated" you and have "used" you hurts me dearly. Because from day one I had your back, from the time you said someone else stole your idea and allegedly tried to flirt with you and you said "bite your neck" to the time you got kicked out of your own house and needed a place to sleep. I had your back you should have mine. I have been getting someone blow up at me because "my name is everywhere, well my name is everywhere because I have proven to execute extra curricular activities and turn them into real life experience" Even to say "that's a personal problem" to me why would I want to help you now you don't even know how to talk to people or respect people you work with. Everybody has the same idea to help others. There are people who are doing the same thing you are doing. If it was ever your mysterious idea nobody knows about why didn't you execute and make it happen yourself in the first place?

I am only here to get the job done and give credit to those who have helped me through assisting me. My goal to help others through experience and resume building and networking is all I can offer. If you felt that I have not given you credit, network, or even felt used you are free whenever you wish to not work with me or help me in my events. I encourage and hope to inspire others to do what they want to do and execute their own events, but it does not mean that I should loose a friendship over it. I find your words hurtful and this post is a way for me to vent. I do not like dealing with people who have something to hide and are emotional draining. This is a way to get my thoughts out, I feel disrespected, I do not need to "steal" peoples ideas that is not who I am. If you ever did know me, I have my own ideas that I express who I am and to share with the rest of the world.

Why

Nobody gives a fuck about a man's feelings.

love

to love is more than thinking about yourself. to care and and be understanding towards another or something. I think everyone knows the feeling one way or the other.

venting 1-31-2011

Looking back at pictures, remembering thoughts I'd thought I would forget, realism, feelism. Appreciate everything somebody does for you in your life. Meeting someone is experiencing that person at that time. People change, therefore we must forgive. We must change the world or be changed by the world. I do not want to be walked on, neither does anyone else I assume so we build our walls, we create contracts and enforce laws. It feels like nobody is taught respect or loyalty anymore. Nobody wants to get stepped on. Nobody wants to get dirty, nobody wants to fall, you only can have no mistake, nobody wants to see each other face to face. Nobody has the time. I was a nobody but now it seems I am getting to know more people and I am in the radar now. I appreciate everything everyone has done for me because when I had no one that is when I had to do everything by myself without someone to talk to, without someone to vent to. I know how being alone feels. Create is to record and the more you record you find you are one step closer into finding who you are. I hope somebody who reads this can relate to me in some way.

1/13/11

There is no better feeling than to be appreciated.

One thing about being an artist is that you get to see me fall and suffer or laugh at my face or not give a shit about anything that I do yet pretend to at the same time don't forget spit in my face. Because nobody has the guts to become a real artist, yet everyone pretends to be one. Nobody likes a mopey artist, but I am tired of pretending to smile. If something bothers me, I will bring it to attention. Because to me, being nice is too much work.