4-17-11

I want to be known for my art and my integrity as much as the sensationalism I provide for the history of mankind

4-11-11

I honestly believe that in my experience in producing paintings, that it does not matter that one works or goes to school or both and say that is a reason why they cannot make the time to create art. In my experience in working in financial services, I understand that work may be tiring or at times consuming. But what really makes a difference is the drive the individual has to do what s/he really wants to do. The hardest thing in creating art is starting. No excuses. No not "I'm depressed" or "I'm tired" or "I got hurt" or "I'm lazy" (admittingly) because that is all on you. People in jail find ways to create art in small spaces with little tools. You only have one life and it is up to the individual to make things happen. I do not work right now and I have used the time to be as productive as I can but I know my flaws and how much effort I can put my body through and we all know sleep and rest is an important thing. This is why I believe the capacity of somebody doing art is just the same for someone who works or someone who does not work. It is all on drive and ambition. Always practice drawing and make it a habit to brea bad habits. By not working, I realized that being productive is a matter of putting in the time that will eventually accumulate into something worth being proud of.

My New Years Resolution for 2011

So my new years resolution for this year is that I will not let anyone walk all over me.

History still repeats itself

Its a good thing for people to learn for themselves

and experience life in their own insanity

know it all's and quasi cosmopolitan teens, the masses of society

all the answers lay there on towering antique dusty shelves.

don't you know what you look like when you're wasted?

the addiction completes you, your love for life you first tasted.

we can't hide forever real life is something everyone must deal with

I do not need to steal ideas I have my own

Let's get the facts straight. How can i "steal" someones "idea" when I never understood their "idea" nor did I even like or could even relate to what your cause is about. Don't flatter yourself and don't you ever disrespect me. I don't have to help you, if whatever I coincidentally did to help people doesn't mean I stole their idea. Helping others is not even an idea in the first place. For someone I once considered a friend to even say I have "manipulated" you and have "used" you hurts me dearly. Because from day one I had your back, from the time you said someone else stole your idea and allegedly tried to flirt with you and you said "bite your neck" to the time you got kicked out of your own house and needed a place to sleep. I had your back you should have mine. I have been getting someone blow up at me because "my name is everywhere, well my name is everywhere because I have proven to execute extra curricular activities and turn them into real life experience" Even to say "that's a personal problem" to me why would I want to help you now you don't even know how to talk to people or respect people you work with. Everybody has the same idea to help others. There are people who are doing the same thing you are doing. If it was ever your mysterious idea nobody knows about why didn't you execute and make it happen yourself in the first place?

I am only here to get the job done and give credit to those who have helped me through assisting me. My goal to help others through experience and resume building and networking is all I can offer. If you felt that I have not given you credit, network, or even felt used you are free whenever you wish to not work with me or help me in my events. I encourage and hope to inspire others to do what they want to do and execute their own events, but it does not mean that I should loose a friendship over it. I find your words hurtful and this post is a way for me to vent. I do not like dealing with people who have something to hide and are emotional draining. This is a way to get my thoughts out, I feel disrespected, I do not need to "steal" peoples ideas that is not who I am. If you ever did know me, I have my own ideas that I express who I am and to share with the rest of the world.

Why

Nobody gives a fuck about a man's feelings.

love

to love is more than thinking about yourself. to care and and be understanding towards another or something. I think everyone knows the feeling one way or the other.