I wanted to Love her

Sometimes what is untrue,
I wish I could undo,
I'm glad I never told her
because I didn't need to.
I can see how wrong I was
But .
we shall walk the path
In the time of my decision
I forgot what was
Truth, proof
fiction
and some other things too.
I know since love could ultimately destroy
ourselves.

Asleep

I knew if I ever said anything, it would have meant nothing.
If I knew it would have meant anything, it almost always never matters.
And that night I soon learned that you can’t win Honor, you can only loose it.
And that there is such thing as “too late”
And that you can only lose what is not yours.

how stories disappear for new ones

Let's not care
Let's not give a fuck
Because it's fun.

Let's just stare
Let's just bare
at the sun.

The sun is forever
and my life doesn't matter

Only to my son
will I look in his eyes
and know what luck means.

Me and Random

I feels good to have everything perfectly neat before me
On rainy days with my best friend
And we never even know but we know somehow
That there will always be a tomorrow
And to feel joy writing my story in a positive end
Just like every other story before me and after and so fourth

Freeway thoughts

I've been chasing my dreams like racing against Myself.
Then I started to walk so the universe just
slowed down.
Letting me take what's mine,
And What isn't mine is meant to be.
We can only lose what isn't ours,
I was born to become what I am in this Earth
Ask aloud and I shall receive
Pain is the duality of love
So I was born to believe in God.
Nobody has the right to tell you how to believe in anything.
I am the water in the river,
watching the time go by
Knowing when the time is right.
These days where everything is known
I can't take anyones word for it
We have to find out for ourselves
and this is why history repeats itself

the hearts club

Today was her birthday,
& he daydreamed until sun went down.
Somesay someday will never happen
threw it in the trashcan.



we see each other again,
we may never even know
what it means
Whats a man
without a heart?
Whats a woman
without a soul.
Whats a child
without a dream
Everything we ever believed in
has an on and off switch
Disposable man
searches for the
free spirit
feelings are just fictions.
Especially when words are just written.

this thing called time.
this thing called mind.

I had to say goodbye

Which would hurt more
though adored
Leaving the led on
or the dedication
of a never ending hug
"the thrill of loving
someone you shouldn't love".
I learned what the
word "end" means.
It means
the completion of a purpose.
and I learned something else.
To believe in God
and not what people tell me to
There is no reason to remember
things that don't mean anything
anymore
Everything will repeat
like a fractal
someone else will do the same thing
while someone who's been there watches
burn candle in the sleepless night.
Burn.